James: “2,000 Years of Sexual Experience Crammed into 40 ”
“2,000 Years of Sexual Experience Crammed into 40 ”
Jan 31, 10 at 11:06pm
Just as I get to the stoplight, after leaving my massage therapist’s office, that little voice in my head says, “You are almost 40, James. Do you think you’ll actually be able to meet one guy and just settle down? You’ve practiced serial monogamy, had temporary poly-amours situations, been in love triangles and tree-ways, one-night stands, European bathhouse tours, gym lockers/saunas/ showers, j/o and sex parties and much, much more, I’d rather not mention. You have the sexual experience of a 2,000 year old immortal sexual being all crammed into under 40 years of life on earth. Now to top it off you’ve been only intimate sexually with your self and your hands for the past 7 months, by choice. Knowing your past sexual history/compulsions it’s a miracle that would take the strength of a 1000 celibate monks to accomplish. I refuse to pat you on the back anymore, it was about time you gave your ass and cock a break, maybe your mind, heart, and conscience will start helping you make wiser decisions.” “Thank you, Sister Mary-Margaret,” I thought.
The light changed, I was about to continue answering back then I realized I was not going to start a conversation with someone/thing that wasn’t there. So, I just decided to listen to and watch my “monkey mind”, as some Gurus call it, go off. The monkey proceeded, “You are getting up there James, and you might not be as emotionally jaded as these other guys around 40, and yes you have done a lot of personal development & spiritual work as well as soul-searching. But are you going to be as flexible as bamboo in the middle of a Southern Florida hurricane or are you going to be the uprooted old oak tree next to it, that wouldn’t give in? I’m not going to get all philosophical/psycho-spiritual on you but you know what I’m talking about.
Are you going to be open to dating again? Maybe you won’t get everything you were hoping to find in that special someone you were looking for? Maybe you can just take this as an adventure and do it one step at a time. You know, you have put off sex for so long you can probably go on a date with someone and not “sleep” with him an hour or two into the date, I dare you. Think and act out of the box, James, maybe you’ll be able to attract and actually box a live one that is sane, has a steady income, and is well off beyond your wildest dreams. I know a wealthy guy is not your number one priority but most gay guys have a lot of “disposable income” and it’s a fringe benefit as long as you hook up with the right one. I know you’re not a gold digger and yet you always have liked to live well or at least be able to travel and visit friends and family. I don’t know how you’ll accomplish it but maybe now you just might be in the right space to create something new. Look at it through a sweet twinks eyes, all innocent and ready for the unexpected, just remember who you are and how wise you are and don’t let the waves knock you down in that sea of love..” “My little voice is just as corny as I am, how cute,” I thought.
The stuff that goes through my head when I’m driving is just amazing, when I actually stop to listen, it seems it’s not always trying to knock me down, it actually had a point.
I arrived at my store just in time to tend to some customers. I continued to feel pretty inspired to take the next step through closing time. After listening to my little voice who appreciated my slightly sarcastic thank you and silence, I decided to join up on a new website some friends recommended called www.Ecupid.net. It was very easy to sign up, I put in all sorts of details of what I want and I got to put a bunch of really cute pictures of me. Compared to other dating and social networking sites it was easy to change details on it, like background and color. After inspecting the site I also found it’s global. But my favorite part is it’s free, at least till everyone finds out about it. I figure these days whatever you can get for free and worthwhile, you better hurry.
By James Dark
The light changed, I was about to continue answering back then I realized I was not going to start a conversation with someone/thing that wasn’t there. So, I just decided to listen to and watch my “monkey mind”, as some Gurus call it, go off. The monkey proceeded, “You are getting up there James, and you might not be as emotionally jaded as these other guys around 40, and yes you have done a lot of personal development & spiritual work as well as soul-searching. But are you going to be as flexible as bamboo in the middle of a Southern Florida hurricane or are you going to be the uprooted old oak tree next to it, that wouldn’t give in? I’m not going to get all philosophical/psycho-spiritual on you but you know what I’m talking about.
Are you going to be open to dating again? Maybe you won’t get everything you were hoping to find in that special someone you were looking for? Maybe you can just take this as an adventure and do it one step at a time. You know, you have put off sex for so long you can probably go on a date with someone and not “sleep” with him an hour or two into the date, I dare you. Think and act out of the box, James, maybe you’ll be able to attract and actually box a live one that is sane, has a steady income, and is well off beyond your wildest dreams. I know a wealthy guy is not your number one priority but most gay guys have a lot of “disposable income” and it’s a fringe benefit as long as you hook up with the right one. I know you’re not a gold digger and yet you always have liked to live well or at least be able to travel and visit friends and family. I don’t know how you’ll accomplish it but maybe now you just might be in the right space to create something new. Look at it through a sweet twinks eyes, all innocent and ready for the unexpected, just remember who you are and how wise you are and don’t let the waves knock you down in that sea of love..” “My little voice is just as corny as I am, how cute,” I thought.
The stuff that goes through my head when I’m driving is just amazing, when I actually stop to listen, it seems it’s not always trying to knock me down, it actually had a point.
I arrived at my store just in time to tend to some customers. I continued to feel pretty inspired to take the next step through closing time. After listening to my little voice who appreciated my slightly sarcastic thank you and silence, I decided to join up on a new website some friends recommended called www.Ecupid.net. It was very easy to sign up, I put in all sorts of details of what I want and I got to put a bunch of really cute pictures of me. Compared to other dating and social networking sites it was easy to change details on it, like background and color. After inspecting the site I also found it’s global. But my favorite part is it’s free, at least till everyone finds out about it. I figure these days whatever you can get for free and worthwhile, you better hurry.
By James Dark
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